saddest thing i've ever read .. :(
Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?
You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?
I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.
…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
❤ "saddest thing i've ever read .. :(" was Posted On: Monday, December 13, 2010 @1:32 PM | 1 lovely comments ✿
Dear fellow girls:
Boys are not going to run to your house at 3am with flowers.They aren't going to scream that they love you down the hallway.
They aren't always going to randomly text you to tell you how beautiful you are.
They probably aren't going to sing and dance with you in the rain.
Yes, they cheat and lie, some of them. But so do girls.
Stop setting these high fucking expectations and get over the fact that they're not perfect, and neither are you.
Labels: waley lang ;)
❤ "Dear fellow girls:" was Posted On: Wednesday, December 08, 2010 @10:01 AM | 3 lovely comments ✿
WHY DO WE HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL?
Since I began walking and talking, my parents always reminded me that I must study hard and go to school so someday I could be the person I wanna be.
So for obvious reasons, we go to school so we can have a better sight of our future, to have a better life, etc.
But putting that aside, it’s still fuzzy because no one really knows what the future holds. You might get two or three degrees but that won’t ensure your bright tomorrow.
I go to school because I want to learn, I want to be mentally prepared. I really don’t care about wealth and power. My dreams are just there to keep me focused. They serve as my goal. But then again, it’s not permanent. It’s not forever.
Next thing is, we go to school because it’s considered a must. When you’re educated, you’ll have better chances for higher job positions or manage your own business venture. So basically, the reason for going to school only becomes clear when we think of money and education.
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❤ "WHY DO WE HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL?" was Posted On: Friday, December 03, 2010 @11:41 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿
1st day of december .
It’s the first day of the month and usually upon knowing that its December I got too excited for my most favorite season of all time, its Christmas!!! :))
I was so looking forward for this years Christmas even though we have family issues that is unsettled.
This is the first time that my father wouldn't be with us for the Holidays. :( I can’t help it but feel sad. I don’t have any reason to feel bad about God that he let it happens. I would be very ungrateful if I would be mad or something. I know whatever happens, its fate ..
I do not need any reason to be angry with GOD .
Labels: ako na EMO :|, Family :)
❤ "1st day of december ." was Posted On: Wednesday, December 01, 2010 @10:35 AM | 1 lovely comments ✿
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meet me halfway
Name: Mitchie
Residing in: Philippines
Birthday: November 27
Status:I’m single with no intentions of looking for a guy. this time, i’m letting him find me.
i’m the type of girl that smiles everyday so no one would figure out her emotions, but during the night, i always cry myself to bed. it sucks because i can’t open up my feelings without feeling vulnerable and stripped of my rights.
i am not a “hot” girl. i will probably never turn you on, or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way i look… but i can make you laugh and make you feel wanted. i really wish that could be enough, just once.
i might not have the biggest boobs nor the biggest butt, i might not have the most bangin’ body either. my smile isn’t perfect and i know my face isn’t the cutest. my hair isn’t always going to look good, and my clothes, they’re not always going to be nice or in the latest fashion.
i might not have any good talents to show you, and i don’t have the best gpa to show off. i get mad, irritated, and jealous real easily and i might get bossy at times. i’m sometimes insecure and i’m very stubborn. but i promise if you gave me a chance, i will give you the best part of me. and all these tiny little things, they won’t matter..
Random Thoughts
i want a cinderella story, a notebook romance, a walk to remember true-to-death love. and to be completely honest, i want you and only you.
i want to stop wishing for you at 11:11 because you’re already mine. i want to draw your name in hearts and not feel guilty.
i want to stop sitting up at night praying to GOD to make you mine. i want to be with you, and only you. i want to text you day and night, i want to hug you and never let go, i want you to kiss me on the cheek, just to be spontaneous, i want to hold hands with you and show you off to the world. i want you, and only you.
1.) i don’t know how much longer i can pretend to be your friend!
2.) i want you to move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me.
3.) i want you to show me that its possible for two people to stay together forever.
4.) i want you to hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.
5.) i wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile.
6.) if we are destined to be together, then even if our love fails now, we will have another chance.
7.) when you meet a person that you feel like he/she is treating you somewhat special, do not fall for that feeling right away because it is much painful when you start craving for that feeling not knowing that it is just his nature.
8.) i wanna get back to the old days. when the phone would ring. and i knew it was you.
9.) the “i” in front of “love you” means everything.
10.) who can still make me laugh when i’m in a bad mood.
11.) someone who will wipe my sweat with his hanky just because i played too much in my favorite game.
12.) you’re my superman.
13.) i’d love to see myself from a boy’s perspective.
14.) someone who can give me advice about friends and family even when he knows that he sucks at it.
15.) i miss it when i push your hair out of your face and put my hands on the back of your head and push you closer to me so that i can kiss you.
16.) i want to be the girl you take home to introduce to your mom and dad.
17.) i wouldn’t trade this distance with you for someone closer and i’d pick sleeping on the phone with you than sleeping in someone else’s arms.
18.) lately i’ve realized that all i really need is somebody who will listen to my bullshit, call me out on my bullshit, and love me despite my bullshit.
19.) re-reading my inbox when i can’t sleep at night.
20.) i love it when you kiss me, and touch my hair, when you pull me close and silently promise that you’ll always stay.
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