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ANNOUNCEMENT:

It just goes to show that through all the drama, every mistake, and all the accomplishments, love can always be there. No matter the fights or the disagreements, after looking at the face that makes yours light up every day, you become thankful for having that someone in your life. Age is but a number and if love is strong enough, it will divide the path and finds its way. Having to see all the memories stream through the heartbeat of your loved one, hearing all the sweet sound of happiness flow throughout their body, it’s lovely. The bumps, turns, and detours that the relationship surpasses, how amazing would it be to say, “We made it here Love, why stop now?” Never giving up and keeping the relationship strong, it’s worth every minute.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH SHE WANTED TO TELL YOU ABOUT HER FEELINGS BUT SHE DIDN’T HAVE THE GUTS TO. SHE CANNOT STAND YOU NEGLECTING HER. THE GIRL WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU HAS HAD ENOUGH. WHEN YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT SOME OTHER GIRL, YOU DO NOT EVEN NOTICE THAT SHE’S FALLING APART; THAT YOU’RE BREAKING HER HEART INTO PIECES. ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOURSELF. YOU DIDN’T PAY ATTENTION TO THE GIRL WHO’S DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE BUSY PUTTING ALL YOUR ATTENTION TO SOMEONE ELSE. YOU’RE RARELY EVEN THERE FOR HER WHEN SHE NEEDS YOU. SHE TRIED TO SUPPRESS HER FEELINGS FOR YOU AND YOU DON’T KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS FOR HER. YOU MADE HER FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU WHEN YOU’RE NOT EVEN THERE TO CATCH HER. SHE CAN’T AFFORD A FEW MORE HEARTACHES. SHE’S DONE.

I want to wake up in your room, in your bed. I want to wake up to that view in your window, the one that looks over everything below. I want to wake up in your arms, my skin pressed against yours. I want to shower in your bathroom and wash my face in your sink. I want to make you coffee and have toast with you. I want to read the morning paper with you and drive to work with you. I want to have our photo in a frame at the corner of my desk. I want to come home from work to you. I want to hold you and feel you and love you properly. I want to make dinner with you. I want to do the dishes and sort laundry with you. I want to get ready for bed with you. I want to fall asleep in your arms, and wake up to you and do everything all over again. I want to be with you.

one day you’re going to want that specific girl. that girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. that girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and love you the only way she knew she could. that girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. that girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though you probably deserve it.

i want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. a boy who will sing to me at random moments. who lets me sleep on his chest. i want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. bring me soup or orange juice when i’m sick. i want a boy who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times. i want a boy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. a boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times i tell him its okay, he’d still do it. a boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything i say. a boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. who will bet kisses on who could beat who on at game. who makes fun of me just to make me laugh. a boy who will surprise me with 25 cent ring and we could have contest of how far we can spit our gum. who will take me to the park, put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. a boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume. i want a boy who, at night, who will dance in his pajamas with me. a boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a trip to the lake and who will play tag on the beach with me. a boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. who will kiss me in the pouring rain. i want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the guitar, even if we just end up laughing at each other. i want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. someone who would never be afraid to say i love you in front of his friends and someone who would argue with me about silly things just to make up. i want a boy who will take me to target to just make fun of some of the stuff there. someone who will kiss me at midnight on new years and who will make funny faces at me when i’m on the phone. i want a boy who will count stars with me and be friends with my family. i want a boy who will stay home with me on a friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after i’ve got him soaked. i want a boy who looks me in the eye and tell me something serious, that was also funny and make me promise not to laugh. a boy who could make me laugh like no one else can. i want a boy who will hold me closer than normal when i’m sick, and would play with my hair. but mostly i want a boy who is my best friend and will always be there for me.

I’m not a complicated girlfriend. i don’t expect you to text me 24/7. i don’t expect you to call me everyday. i don’t expect you to put me in front of your boys. i don’t expect you to ditch all your girl best friends for me. i don’t expect you to surprise me with roses. i don’t expect you to buy me the world on my birthday. i don’t expect you to always agree with what i say. i don’t expect you to pay for everything. i don’t expect you to go out of your way and buy all the things that i mention i wanted. i don’t expect you to put me over your family. i don’t expect you to brag about me to all your friends.i don’t expect you to believe i’m the best girlfriend in the whole world. i don’t expect you to stop checking out other girls. i don’t expect you to never mention a hot girl in front of me. i don’t expect you to already know what i want. i don’t expect you to never be mad at me. i just expect you to be trustworthy, to trust me, to never take me for granted like i won’t take you for granted, to always be real with me, to keep equality between us, and to love me. that’s all.

You know you miss someone when you feel like everything seems dull and incomplete without that person around.
When you look around you, everything you see reminds you of that person, when her/his favorite music plays, you start feeling lonely…
when you are eating something he/she likes, you start wishing that person is there to share it with, or when you walk the same path you used to walk on together, you find yourself wishing she/he was there walking with you, talking, laughing, having a light yet fun conversation….
whenever you talk to him or her, you wish that moment could last forever, you hate having to go and saying goodbye and you always look forward to seeing and talking to that person again. when you are talking on the phone… her/his voice is still playing inside your head even after you hang-up the phone…
…or sometimes, you simply find yourself smiling for no reason when you think about that person….

sometimes, somebody is just right there in front of you or beside you, and yet you miss him or her. That happens when things have changed between you and that someone, and you wish things were the same as they used to…
you look at the person and you start having that “too near yet too far” feeling…

I think everyone has a certain part of their life where they truly wish they could freeze time.
Whether it was 3 years ago, today or still to come.
Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer.
Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop, the world would stop turning and the people would stop changing because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

I miss the feeling of having someone.
I miss talking to someone the whole day and night.
I miss the feeling that you get when you start to develop a crush.
I miss the butterflies that flutter around inside your stomach when you have to meet up with him.
I miss the excitement of receiving a cute text and smiling like an idiot.

But all this can be gone within a second.
Waking up in the morning expecting a day like the ones prior but ending up crying yourself to sleep over a boy who took it all and smashed it to pieces.

I hate how you can just have everything and have it be all gone right before your eyes.
I hate how a boy can just play you all the way to the ground.
I hate how you remember the past and sadness over whelms you.

But what I hate the most is the loneliness you feel months later that have nothing to do with the boy but has everything to do with the memories of joy that you once felt.